Life in the Mad House

So that was quite the long hiatus I took there. Things have been MAD, I tell you! MAD! We were all incredibly sick, then the hubbs had a huge project due so all my free time was spent watching Baboo so the Hubbs could do schoolwork. Then MY huge project was due, so all my free time was spent working on that while the Hubbs watched Baboo. A lot has been going on.

My mom is out of the hospital and back at home. She is really depressed and her personality has changed a lot. I would be depressed too. She's married to a jerk, has severe financial problems, lives in chronic pain, has been getting screwed around for her settlement date from the accident for years now. I would be enough to make anyone depressed, I think. It's just that its hard to be around her when she's like that. For instance, last week I REALLY needed to be working on my project, but she called to tell me that she was going to be home by herself all day. I know she gets really anxious and lonely when she's alone, so I offered to go over and keep her company (though I'd have to do my research the entire time). So I rushed over there and just hung out and worked while she napped. I threw in a load of laundry for her, took a break from my studies to go for a walk with her because it was beautiful out and I wanted her to get some sun and fresh air. Then when it was time for me to go, she kept trying to guilt me into staying.

"I don't want you to go."
"I hate being here by myself."
"I wish you could stay."

Well, I can't. I have a son and a husband and an apartment and responsibilities, and I put everything aside for you today but now I have to go. Just thank me for coming over and say good-bye. It makes me not want to visit, knowing she'll be like that when I have to leave. She is just not herself and I hate that she's so depressed.

Speaking of crazy family, the in-laws were here last weekend. The in-laws that we haven't seen since we moved across the country two years ago to get away from them, and didn't speak to at all until after Baboo was born.

It actually went surprisingly well. They just came for three days, which was great. Baboo liked them. They brought lots of gifts for him. We made them a video-montage of their visit and gave it to them on the day they left. They want us to visit this summer. We can't afford it. We can't borrow any money from them because that just really complicates things. We made that mistake in the past and won't do it again, though they offered to pay to fly us out there. Now they're offering us their airmiles points. I don't feel super comfortable with the idea, but we'll see.

I have been taking a photo a day since January 1st, and it's been a challenge at times. Somedays its just a crappy snapshot, but I'm no perfectionist. On Friday I'm going to see my cousin's new daughter, and I'll also be taking some photos. I'm pretty nervous about it. I hope it goes well.

That's all for now!